Every Time Jonathan Martin Speaks He Becomes More Of An Anomaly To Me

What constitutes something being considered a pattern? It has to happen more than twice, right? Good, the last thing I want to do is become known as the person that disparages people that commit suicide or those that have suicidal thoughts. We'll just consider the fact that I am a couple paragraphs away from doing so for the second time in two days an unfortunate coincidence. 

I have a question. What ever made Jonathan Martin think he was cut out to play professional football? I am not even talking about his talent. Clearly he had enough of that given that he was selected in the second round of the NFL draft. I am talking about his mental stability. Dude, has been a head case with no self esteem since he was 10 years old. Did he think that type of personality was going to fit seemingly into an, often off color, NFL locker room? Did he think that the competitiveness and the national exposure that comes with an NFL roster spot were things that meshed well with his insecurities? How can he get along with teammates when he can't even get along with himself? Word to the wise Jonathan, it's much easier to accept someone if they already accept themselves. I find it very hard to believe that there wasn't a single fucking person that took Martin for who he was as he grew up. We aren't exactly talking about Jackie Robinson here. He's not the first light skinned black dude to go to a primarily white school. He's not the first teenager to feel uncomfortable in social settings, or do something he didn't feel comfortable doing in an attempt to be 'cool'. That shit is just part of growing up. The entire plight of Jonathan Martin seems pretty clear to me. He has no fucking identity. He's still is that "chubby, goofy, socially-isolated, sensitive kid getting bullied" because he has never let himself be anything but that person. That person probably shouldn't be on a field with the strongest, meanest athletes in the world as they attempt to manhandle one another. Shit, I don't even know how that kid lasted through playground games without crying, nevermind the most physically demanding occupation on the planet.

Yeah, Richie Incognito was kind of a dickhead, and he deserves, in part, the social backlash that he received. However, let's not let that overshadow the real issue here. Jonathan Martin did an awful job of choosing his career path. I don't care how good he was, he stood no chance of having a lengthy, successful career in the NFL. He's a grown man. He has to own that decision. That's not his high school's fault. It's not Stanford's fault. It's not the NFL's fault. It's not even Richie Incognito's fault. In NFL terms, Jonathan Martin is kind of a pussy, and while there's nothing wrong with that, his negligence in recognizing it let to a scandal that now defines him. 

You want me to dust off that transcript that shows an adequate 'B+' in Psychology? If I were playing therapist I would say that it's very telling that Jonathan Martin needed to give a second hand account of a first hand history. Dude can't even talk about his problems as if he were the one that experienced them. I hope he gets the help he needs. It's long overdue.