NYPost- The Queens jogger who was found strangled to death Tuesday night in a remote section of Howard Beach wrote numerous ominous posts on her Instagram and personal Web site embracing the possibility of dying early.
“Have you ever found solace in the thought of dying? Not in a suicidal way, it’s just….Sometimes when I’m feeling really sad & lonely and misunderstood I wonder, if right now, at this age & this time of my life if by some freak accident I died, what would happen?” she wrote in a post on her site entitled “porcelain.”
“I play out what my eulogy would sound like, and how only my best friend would know exactly what to say. It sounds morbid, I’m sure, a bit disturbing maybe, but I’ve done it ever since I was a little girl in order to cope with feeling alone at times in this downright scary world. And it always calms me down.”
About seven months ago, she posted a forward-thinking screenshot to Instagram ahead of her 30th birthday, which was in mid-July.
“Me at 5: I can’t wait until I’m a teenager I’m gonna have so much fun. Me at 15: I can’t wait until I’m in my twenties I’m gonna have so much fun. Me at 30: I can’t wait for the sweet, sweet embrace of death,” she wrote.
I don't want to make it sound like a 30 year woman getting strangled to death on a beach after potentially getting sexually assaulted during a late night run is any less of a tragedy than it originally seemed to be. Regardless of her feelings on living, she still should have been given the voluntary choice to stop doing so when she pleased.
That said, this is a little bit of relief, right? I certainly hope they catch the person that was lurking in dunes patiently waiting to choke the life out of unsuspecting joggers, but - considering his/her decision to turn homicidal was inevitable - he/she picked a hell of a target. You never want to see anyone die prematurely, but if it has to be someone then it might as well be the weirdly morbid chick who seemed to be anticipating her demise. All things considered, it's better to take someone who is eagerly awaiting death than someone who fears it.
I mean, this chick talked about dying - on public platforms - like I talk about impending BBQ's with my college buddies. Most people find an event to look forward to on the calendar so that the day-to-day grind doesn't seem so bleak, but Karina Vetrano TBD death date was what kept her going throughout the week. It's one thing to be unafraid of dying, it's a little more concerning when you're scripting your own eulogy. I think everyone has pondered - at one time or another - how many people would show up to their funeral, but this chick had basically already planned hers. Once you start referring to death as a "sweet, sweet embrace" then it's only a matter of time before you hug it out. I'm sure she wasn't expecting it to be a PDA, but life is about the journey and death is about the destination.